There's always a critic somewhere in my head, cursing me, criticising, setting the bar for the things I need to do, for the things I haven't done enough, for the things that I must sometimes force myself to do in order to achieve that shiny cloud of satisfaction when I cross the finishing line.
Sometimes it worked, sometimes it failed because I was distracted, sometimes he wasn't harsh enough.
Don't want a thousand years of regret, for a chance I missed, for the extra hour I could have done to make it better. Saying things like I wished I had, If only I had done_____. It's a repeated cycle, ever so tiring. Time is always an issue. Or rather time management. But at least I want to be happy working hard and of course working smart.
Why do I sound like I'm torturing myself.
I'm running this race again, for my JLPTest. A certificate to mark my understanding in the japanese language. A language I'm passionate for and was so keen in learning when I was a kid. I want to do well. I want to understand. I want to read the book I bought last year. I want to read interviews. I want to go Japan. Can I do it? Will I get at least 60 and pass? With 6 levels of work to comprehend, hundreds of vocabulary to get into my head, a killer listening test, all these in less than 5 days. Other than saying die and give up, I must do what I can. Yes.
~
ok this is how I motivate myself to start studying again. Remember all the reasons I want to pass this test, saying things like must, can, definitely will kick me back to studying again. I must not look down the cliff and keep climbing. I must at least try my best, even if I fail I won't regret for the 5 days of work I put myself through. Yes, ok bring on the next level, I'm ready! Focus!
[Though I'm not sure whether I'll be highly spirited about tomorrow to study again, but heh that's tmr. ok get back to work!]
I need to panic if not I wont get my heart still to study.
Why are you not studying.
Because I'm distracted and I'm half in holiday mood and I don't want to.
But you shouldn't be so wilful, you know you'll regret for not working hard enough when you get your results back. I have some more time, maybe. It's only 12.30am. A few more chapters to memorise and read then it should be.. okay. I hope.
Come on it's your last paper, you're almost done, bear with it! No it's not my last paper, I have JLPT on SUNDAY. AND I'VE BARELY TOUCHED ANYTHING.
Try to remember how interesting you felt graphic design history was. It's not interesting today.
Be a good girl, you've watched Dead Man's Chest and you're happy so now get back to reality already. I'm trying, by talking to myself here. Is it working? Hmm not yet but maybe I'll try reading my favourite topics again.
As I was trying to start studying again after I had my dinner, I heard a familiar tune of the pirates of the caribbean. Curious to what ads are using this theme again, I walked to the tv and I saw..
A FULL SHOT OF CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW STANDING ON A BOAT.
Surprised I gaped, omg.
Drats if I had known the black pearl's gona show on tv tonight I'd have mugggged really hard in the day. But nevertheless this made my night.
Because I'm still a pirate fangirl through and through. :D
Studying with facebook, msn and twitter on always cracks me up seeing impending doom statuses like: "is going to buy a coffin and die in it today" or "I want to buy some time please"
or puns associated with AAH [Asian Art History]
like aah I'm dead or aah bang wall or "omg hoyu-ji muri-ji genji todai-ji simidai-ji?!"
Though I'm not any better, paper is tomorrow and I haven't read at least 50% of the monuments. At least I like studying about Japan, but that's just too much info for 2 nights of study. I need to digest history from 1st century AD all the way to 1495AD, that's like studying 1495 years of history in 2 nights. After that I only have 1 night to understand Singapore society, which is even much more worse. Nah not the worst because I've got friends still rushing projects at the same time, that is the ultimate worst situation. I'm thankful to have cleared my course projects even if it's only 2 days before my first paper.
I am finally done for the semester with my submissions! Well other than exams, the first paper starting in 2 days and I haven't started studying. Somehow after miraculously churning out 2 books in just 2.5 days, I feel I can do anything.
These are the 3 babies that I've made this week with much sleepless nights and temptations from watching the next ep of you're beautiful, I am pleased. I was so bad at paper crafts before but now after 3 attempts at perfect binding, I'm glad to say I've improved with each book I made. So I'm really happy with that, though some pages still seem to be on the edge of falling off if flipped too roughly. Now I wished I took more photos before handing them in.
This's my favourite page in the letter journal. Spent at about 3 hours drawing all those Fs while facebooking, blasting music in the middle of the night but I had fun! They look better photographed actually haha. F for fun! :D
One of my haiku page for type.
Though I think I could have done more pages for the letter journal given more time but I think I did my best in this very short timeframe. And I'm so happy right now I'm finally done with submissions this sem! Oh happy day!
~
So I spent my night watching dramas and catching up reading reviews, entertainment news. I really need to shut off from design for a while, tonight at least. "You're Beautiful" is currently my drama dose this season. It's like a fusion of Boys Over Flowers [Great set, great fashion] and Coffee Prince [Great crack, great moments] which screams awesome addictive drama for a fangirl. Then I chanced upon more episodic reviews of Love Shuffle and I went to watch the last episode again. It's almost winter, wondering if Nojima Shinji-san wrote any new dramas next season.
Yes I am so enjoying myself tonight it's almost 2am and I'm not even sleepy yet. I think I'm considered quite lucky to have at least 4 hours of sleep the past few days. I don't really believe in staying up all night to do something, because I find that when you get really tired, you spent the rest of your low energy on keeping yourself awake and then you'll do work half the speed. Sleep is for the strong! Yeah so I'm off to bed now, what awaits is another hectic weekend studying for my papers.
The main banner in this layout's a scan from a monthly japanese magazine called Kaze to Rock, May issue 08.
Featuring Ueno Juri, Eita and Nagasawa Masami from Last Friends, a japanese drama. Been wanting to work on this picture since I saw it,
really like the photoshoot because it's all so natural and green and cool.
When I saw this picture it kinda feels like they're working on something and the word "dreams" popped up in my head. Juri's like ok let's do something and Eita's like
Ok, yes yes and Masami's like just arrive, yo what's up. And they just sit down on the grass like this and start talking. Talking about hopes? Dreams maybe?
Then "it takes flight from here", whatever they were planning. Hopefully my dreams will take flight too!
The main colour scheme here is green, as most parts of the picture focuses on the greenery, the grass and the trees. I'm keeping the layout the same as my
previous one because I like it straightforward and simple. The content design I was planning it to look like some kind of flash card, like those you write your speech
during presentation? Had a hard time choosing colours to complement the yellow green because it's looking too greenish! Tell me what you think.
fangal for various dramas, movies, animes, idols, characters
Current Interests
Things I'm working on and interested in
Kimura Takuya
Every action he does on screen is just, charming. He can sing, dance, host, joke, and is a superb actor!
SMAP
Nakai may sing out of tune, Goro may not dance very well, but I just love seeing them together partially because KT is in SMAPTheir imperfection is exactly what makes me like them.
Love Shuffle
One of my favourite dramas written by Nojima Shinji revolving switching partners for a week. I love this show's quirkiness!
Pride
Featuring Kimura Takuya and Takeuchi Yuko, a japanese drama on ice hockey can be surprisingly this good though ordinary.
Freelance job
From working on websites, flash, designing logos, banners to animation. Helps to build up my portfolio and earn
some cash at the same time.
物の哀れ
Wednesday, December 02, 2009, 12:38 AM
There's always a critic somewhere in my head, cursing me, criticising, setting the bar for the things I need to do, for the things I haven't done enough, for the things that I must sometimes force myself to do in order to achieve that shiny cloud of satisfaction when I cross the finishing line.
Sometimes it worked, sometimes it failed because I was distracted, sometimes he wasn't harsh enough.
Don't want a thousand years of regret, for a chance I missed, for the extra hour I could have done to make it better. Saying things like I wished I had, If only I had done_____. It's a repeated cycle, ever so tiring. Time is always an issue. Or rather time management. But at least I want to be happy working hard and of course working smart.
Why do I sound like I'm torturing myself.
I'm running this race again, for my JLPTest. A certificate to mark my understanding in the japanese language. A language I'm passionate for and was so keen in learning when I was a kid. I want to do well. I want to understand. I want to read the book I bought last year. I want to read interviews. I want to go Japan. Can I do it? Will I get at least 60 and pass? With 6 levels of work to comprehend, hundreds of vocabulary to get into my head, a killer listening test, all these in less than 5 days. Other than saying die and give up, I must do what I can. Yes.
~
ok this is how I motivate myself to start studying again. Remember all the reasons I want to pass this test, saying things like must, can, definitely will kick me back to studying again. I must not look down the cliff and keep climbing. I must at least try my best, even if I fail I won't regret for the 5 days of work I put myself through. Yes, ok bring on the next level, I'm ready! Focus!
[Though I'm not sure whether I'll be highly spirited about tomorrow to study again, but heh that's tmr. ok get back to work!]
I need to panic if not I wont get my heart still to study.
Why are you not studying.
Because I'm distracted and I'm half in holiday mood and I don't want to.
But you shouldn't be so wilful, you know you'll regret for not working hard enough when you get your results back. I have some more time, maybe. It's only 12.30am. A few more chapters to memorise and read then it should be.. okay. I hope.
Come on it's your last paper, you're almost done, bear with it! No it's not my last paper, I have JLPT on SUNDAY. AND I'VE BARELY TOUCHED ANYTHING.
Try to remember how interesting you felt graphic design history was. It's not interesting today.
Be a good girl, you've watched Dead Man's Chest and you're happy so now get back to reality already. I'm trying, by talking to myself here. Is it working? Hmm not yet but maybe I'll try reading my favourite topics again.
As I was trying to start studying again after I had my dinner, I heard a familiar tune of the pirates of the caribbean. Curious to what ads are using this theme again, I walked to the tv and I saw..
A FULL SHOT OF CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW STANDING ON A BOAT.
Surprised I gaped, omg.
Drats if I had known the black pearl's gona show on tv tonight I'd have mugggged really hard in the day. But nevertheless this made my night.
Because I'm still a pirate fangirl through and through. :D
Studying with facebook, msn and twitter on always cracks me up seeing impending doom statuses like: "is going to buy a coffin and die in it today" or "I want to buy some time please"
or puns associated with AAH [Asian Art History]
like aah I'm dead or aah bang wall or "omg hoyu-ji muri-ji genji todai-ji simidai-ji?!"
Though I'm not any better, paper is tomorrow and I haven't read at least 50% of the monuments. At least I like studying about Japan, but that's just too much info for 2 nights of study. I need to digest history from 1st century AD all the way to 1495AD, that's like studying 1495 years of history in 2 nights. After that I only have 1 night to understand Singapore society, which is even much more worse. Nah not the worst because I've got friends still rushing projects at the same time, that is the ultimate worst situation. I'm thankful to have cleared my course projects even if it's only 2 days before my first paper.
I am finally done for the semester with my submissions! Well other than exams, the first paper starting in 2 days and I haven't started studying. Somehow after miraculously churning out 2 books in just 2.5 days, I feel I can do anything.
These are the 3 babies that I've made this week with much sleepless nights and temptations from watching the next ep of you're beautiful, I am pleased. I was so bad at paper crafts before but now after 3 attempts at perfect binding, I'm glad to say I've improved with each book I made. So I'm really happy with that, though some pages still seem to be on the edge of falling off if flipped too roughly. Now I wished I took more photos before handing them in.
This's my favourite page in the letter journal. Spent at about 3 hours drawing all those Fs while facebooking, blasting music in the middle of the night but I had fun! They look better photographed actually haha. F for fun! :D
One of my haiku page for type.
Though I think I could have done more pages for the letter journal given more time but I think I did my best in this very short timeframe. And I'm so happy right now I'm finally done with submissions this sem! Oh happy day!
~
So I spent my night watching dramas and catching up reading reviews, entertainment news. I really need to shut off from design for a while, tonight at least. "You're Beautiful" is currently my drama dose this season. It's like a fusion of Boys Over Flowers [Great set, great fashion] and Coffee Prince [Great crack, great moments] which screams awesome addictive drama for a fangirl. Then I chanced upon more episodic reviews of Love Shuffle and I went to watch the last episode again. It's almost winter, wondering if Nojima Shinji-san wrote any new dramas next season.
Yes I am so enjoying myself tonight it's almost 2am and I'm not even sleepy yet. I think I'm considered quite lucky to have at least 4 hours of sleep the past few days. I don't really believe in staying up all night to do something, because I find that when you get really tired, you spent the rest of your low energy on keeping yourself awake and then you'll do work half the speed. Sleep is for the strong! Yeah so I'm off to bed now, what awaits is another hectic weekend studying for my papers.